Refiring not Retiring
I have just spent the last few days at the Global Leadership Conference. Several speakers have challenged us to reach out and seek unity among each other and the world around me. I personally have been challenged to look at change as a good thing and to realize God has plans for my future and every day I am trusting God to look forward and not backward towards the new ministry that lies ahead.
It has been a great blessing to know who will take over my ministry at FBC and I know with all my heart that she is the exact person God has chosen for the job. Do I get a little teary thinking about leaving behind all the wonderful ladies I have spent time with these last 27 years? You bet I do! Do I know this is the right time to leave and start a new phase in life? You bet I do! But as I have said before, I am refiring NOT retiring! Sometime when I think about moving and leaving so much behind, I sometimes question my decision. I wonder, did I really hear from God, am I truly supposed to go to India? What do I have to share that would be of value? How will I support myself? I notice when I am not focused on my Abba Daddy, I find my mind racing with many questions. But when I refocus, I am again reminded that all of those thoughts are just a distraction that keeps me from focusing on being obedient to His call.
Today at the conference, I was challenged to look forward rather than behind. To look towards what is ahead, a wonderful little school in India filled with children who need to learn how much God loves them, teachers who need encouragement to keep going when the day seems overwhelming and creating and building relationships with the parents of the children. I have the privilege of going to church in a new small fellowship with people who don’t speak or sing in my language, but love the same Savior as much as I do. Will I miss our Worship time in Lodi? You bet! But lately, each Sunday I have made it a point to drink in the music and preaching in English. I find when I maintain my focus of Jesus; I have amazing peace that this is what God has for my future.
As I start looking at plane tickets and think about what I need to take with me and what I need to leave behind I get excited. In fact some days, I am so excited about India it is hard to be present in Lodi. I am anxious to start sharing with each of you from India. I am so very grateful for each of you who have chosen to walk this journey with me through your support, encouragement, prayers and financial support. I could not make this journey without you and I feel like I am taking each of you with me. In 2009 I was sitting in a hotel room in Gangtok, India having a quite time. Looking out the window towards the town and surrounding mountains, the Lord gave me the following passage of scripture that I have clung too since then. When I question myself I turn to Psalm 16: 5-9 “Lord you have assigned me my portion and my cup; the boundary lines have fallen for me in delightful places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the Lord who counsels me; even in the night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body will rest secure, because you will not abandon me.”
Together with your friendship and support we are poised to start this journey together!